Oh There's Sunshine, Blessed Sunshine

Sunday, I threw myself the biggest pity party.  I am ashamed to say that I was extremely depressed over things that I should have been happy about.  Brandon came home for a short visit, arriving late Thursday and leaving first thing Sunday morning, and I was released from my calling as a member of the primary presidency.  Instead of focusing on the blessing I have received from having my husband home for those 2 days, and from serving in the primary for the last 4 years, I was more focused on what felt like that end of everything.  I was an emotional basket case, and it wasn't pretty.

 

But, two nights before I was to be released, and before my husband went back, I had this silly dream.   I dreamt that I was doing sharing time and had the kids sing "There is Sunshine in my Soul".  In my dream, my good friend, Rebekah (who is also the primary pianist), played the song extremely dramatic.  She had extra chords and a dramatic ending.  It was great.  I told her about this dream Saturday night. 

 

Sunday came, against my best wishes for it to be Saturday forever.  I dropped Brandon off at the airport and waiting all morning long for church.  1 o'clock church is not fun to wait for when you don't want it to happen.  Then it came, and I was released.  Without going into detail with my feelings regarding it, I will just say that I think being released was the straw that broke the emotional camel's back.  I cried off and on through the entirety of church (and pretty much the remainder of the day).  But, in primary, between the Jr. and Sr. primaries I found myself singing "There is Sunshine, blessed sunshine".  Without realizing it, I was singing along to the piano as my wonderful friend played it. 

 

Over the last two days, I have found myself singing the song anytime I am trying to cheer my kids up, or when I'm having a rough moment.  It has helped me focus on the blessings I enjoy.

 

Here are a few of the special things I should be happy about:

 

Melanie brought her first reading book home from school, and mastered it in one day, and today brought home her second book.  She loves blending her letters and is just taking off so fast.

 

Noelle and mommy visited the pedi-neurologist, who turned out to be so nice.  Noelle did an amazing job, and didn't cry (which is amazing).  Noelle is being treated for migraines for the next 6 weeks with a preventative medication, and at the end of the 6 weeks we will go from there.  I don't actually want her to continue taking medication after that if I can avoid it.  I have been trying to figure out a good oil or combination of oils that would help her with her headaches.  I haven't mastered that on yet, however.

Speaking of mastering something, my little man has mastered the play ground.  He goes up the steps and down the curly slide all by himself.  I'm one happy mom.  And I love listening to him giggle all the way down.

 

And finally, I'm blessed to have an amazing family who loves me unconditionally.  I have always known that I was imperfect, but lately it has become more and more apparent how imperfect I truly am.  And yet I have these wonderful people that just love me, no matter what.  I am one really blessed woman and mom.

 

(I will post more on Brandon's little visit later!)